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Friday, September 30

The Verdict.

So finally got back all the papers. For the first time, i guess i wasn't really affected with any of the grades i got. Maybe just a little more than just a little. Hmm..It sounds cliche to say, "cheer up" and "move on" but seriously, these are the only words i want to say. the rest is needless if you can't understand what these two phrases meant. And perhaps deep down yet you still feel or think, "hah what's this woman talking about, what does she know". haha then i got nothing to say le la. It's all in the mind. In yours, and in mine.

Don't be discouraged, because every failed attempt discarded is another step forward. If you feel that your rope is coming to an end, tie a knot and hang on. Fight this one more, one last round.

we can all do it together.

Heli Dont ask me why 8:02 PM

Saturday, September 24

are you interested in what i'm saying

so.. what do i write tonight.
i haven't been doing any kind of rantings over here for a while, have i?
i don't know why it was such a "lost" feeling just now, or perhaps these days.
i always walk home with heavy heart each day..
it just felt empty and thoughts starts to fill it all..

at times i just can't help feeling those qualms around me,
although on the surface i don't seem to mind at all.
often, i wish i can see in different perspectives..
to see who i am in people's eyes..

i ponder upon much thoughts yet again tonight.
most of you've already harbour the thought that i always think too much
and always tell me not to think too much
just how much is too much..?
and actually telling me these words don't help much.
either i'm stubborn or it isn't.
you choose it.

*no special issue address here*

so..
who cares if i make sense out of these rants or not..
who cares if i can't reason out all these..
who cares if in the end its just aimless writings..
who cares if no one understand at all..

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go.
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why.
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

Heli Dont ask me why 11:52 PM

so what should i blog tonight? =)

Heli Dont ask me why 12:43 AM

Thursday, September 22

Your dating personality profile:

Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love.
Athletic - Physical fitness is one of your priorities. You find the time to work athletic pursuits into your schedule. You enjoy being active.
Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate.

Your date match profile:

Big-Hearted - You want someone compassionate, someone gentle and kind. A loving, nurturing person will fill that hole in your life.
Adventurous - You are looking for someone who is willing to try new things and experience life to its fullest. You need a companion who encourages you to take risks and do exciting things.
Outgoing - Shy and timid people are not who you are after. You need someone with a vibrant personality to breathe life into a relationship.

Your Top Ten Traits

1. Big-Hearted
2. Athletic
3. Liberal
4. Romantic
5. Religious
6. Adventurous
7. Practical
8. Wealthy/Ambitious
9. Traditional
10. Shy

Your Top Ten Match Traits

1. Big-Hearted
2. Adventurous
3. Outgoing
4. Religious
5. Athletic
6. Practical
7. Romantic
8. Conservative
9. Intellectual
10. Wealthy/Ambitious

Take the Online Dating Profile Quiz at Dating Diversions

Heli Dont ask me why 11:12 PM

aint you happy for me? =D

weeeee. i'm so happy now. haha. prelim is FINALLY over. =D
and had such a great time with the gerls yesterday haha.
(so rarely we have such kind of gatherings hor? must have more kay!)
anyway to dear ms lai: hope ya enjoyed your 18th b'day with us. =D

and then i'm so proud of xinmin! =D
wee we've got the school excellence award. oh well haha though i'm not a student of the school le, haha but i feel so happy for them too. feel so honoured to be part of xinmin last time. hah i truly missed those days in school, with the ongoing activities..

hah but life now isn't too bad either. i like my friends lots hehe. just the studying part.. haha a bit xing ku la hor. but well.. jc life is like that ba.

yup its been a while since i felt this way as in this way. probably last time i felt this way was 2003 champions day. haha. the same feeling, elated about some stuffs, yet too tired to really enjoy it.

heee. okie adios~

Heli Dont ask me why 12:15 AM

Saturday, September 17

Friends of Xinmin

.dorcas . me . liyue.

haha it's been a while since i went up on stage for something already and yeah.
my name was mentioned and lols. felt so pai seh after that.
talked to dorcas, chingyee, yinning, liyue lots. hehe. =)

well hah gtg study le. boy 2 more papers to go.

hee. this is my award. =)

Heli Dont ask me why 10:31 AM

Thursday, September 15

seriously i think econs is nice and interesting to learn...

but it sucks big time if you have to take the paper. 3 essays. my goodness...

sighs i'm really studying very slow. =\

*wanna burst out in tears le*

somebody save meeee.

No one cares, no one's there
I guess we're all just too damn busy

Heli Dont ask me why 4:59 PM

Wednesday, September 14

insomnia i need a cure for it! somebody just throw me some sleeping drug!!

yeah next tue seem so near yet so far. left with economics, human geog and yeah it will be celebration. seems like there's nothing much bout it eh, but sigh, to think i'm gonna have to write 3 essays (i bet half the time i'll not know what i'm writing) this friday.. *turn off*

other things other things.. urmmm....

and yes to the zha bor who has roamed the world for 2 decades and still is, wondering what's life about and still having the GU GU hairstyle which we tried to change but she still prefers the old pattern, and always go around wanting to kick people's ass and scolding them shit or assholes and what not.. ya that's you, ya YOU DONT SIAM.

lol to this special zha bor, happy 20th. sorry if this come a little late, but better late than never right? =)

Heli Dont ask me why 4:46 PM

Monday, September 12

"Let the game begin."

Heli Dont ask me why 9:19 AM

Sunday, September 11

couldn't remember when was the last time we meet up le lols.
but its hard though to think of it. after my prelims is promos. after promos is poly exams ba.
lol this is a clash clash year. FEY I MISS YOU ALL.

hah the pui day is coming. =/

Heli Dont ask me why 12:22 AM

Thursday, September 8

lol. FULL-OF-SHIT-mag and i've a conversation and it was so damn funny.
i bet my dad would just freak out if he saw me laughing so loudly in front of the com.
haha. thanks mag. ;)

hah. my stomach hurts lol.

Heli Dont ask me why 12:53 AM

Monday, September 5

TRAEH KAEW
my heart has been pumping v v hard these days and v v fast.

WHAT IS HAPPENING?

and especially hard just now because of some people LAH.

to both of you:

i await both of you to hand me the card personally, with both hands and two smiles. =)

Heli Dont ask me why 11:02 PM

Friday, September 2

my family - the "fishmongers."

just don't get it. can't even do their own stuffs at home meh?
it's as if they will die after washing a few cups.
selfish lot of people i have in my house. wtf.
so fed up with them. grrrrrrrrrr.
stupid lot of people. sickening group of males.
stfu to all of them la.
doubt they will even bother whether i disappear from the earth not.
machiam maid like that. fark.

*so angry*

i hate them i hate them i hate them I HATE THEM. BLOODY HELL.

Heli Dont ask me why 11:33 PM

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